I staggered to the front door this morning feeling like I’d had a pretty heavy night out on the town (I wish!)thinking it would be my Mum or Dad with MORE food. I wasn’t in the best state to be dealing with the Jehovah’s Witnesses that greeted me at the door. They didn’t last very long and they certainly didn’t want to come in for a chat. If their God made me like this I’m not exactly a massive fan (no offense) 😉 Anyway, lets just hope the Botox works miracles!

I stupidly went to Dunelm’s alone the other day and I’ve really struggled ever since. I started feeling really bad and any normal person would have got out of there as quick as possible. I knew what ever happened I’d be in bed for the next few days so I didn’t want it to all be for nothing. So stupidly I still queued up to pay clinging onto the desk for dear life. I must have looked terrible (or just drunk!) as the checkout woman made me sit there for a bit before leaving (she wrapped my glasses in A lOT of paper!).I knew I had to get to my car and sit quietly and let things all settle down. Unfortunately I didn’t quite make it and came to on the ground in the car park. All those cushions and blankets and my head still homes in on concrete! Everyone was really nice (and brought out cushions!) although convincing them I didn’t need a ambulance was quite difficult – I think you lose some credibility when you’re on the floor. I won’t be going back there for a while, especially on my own. On the plus side my glasses didn’t break!

I went to see my Neurologist last week which was a bit of a mission as he’s based in Liverpool. Simple things like needing to use the toilets at the Services is a bit of a nightmare for me. Why are they always so far away once you actually get into the building? It’s like when your’e queuing for a ride at Alton Towers – unfortunately Im already on one of those!

He seemed to think it was a good sign that things had been so bad – yes you read that correctly! His logic was that the Botox was doing more good than I had thought and so once it started coming out of my system I completely crashed (literally to the floor!). I’m not quite so convinced. So I had all the injections again and I’ve felt awful ever since, like a constant migraine with terrible headaches and nausea. Apparently this is a good sign that it’s working (still not convinced) and I just have to hope something good comes out of this. Fun, fun, fun!

I had managed to do some of my furniture painting prior to this. I absolutely love my bed head! I got it from the charity shop (I’m on first name terms with everyone there!) for £20 and then painted it up as it was black and boring. I’ve found this amazing chalk paint that goes over pretty much anything it’s great!

I’m also pleased with my £30 table and chairs that I ‘revived’ and painted. Who needs a Habitat budget to have a nice home?

I ain’t no sado with nothing to do on a friday night – I’ve got plans!

Cheers Bex xx

It’s so nice to get some sunshine it certainly feels like spring is on the way. I’m enjoying having a little garden to potter in.

Hopefully I’ll be having plenty of tomato soup soon 😉

Yay I’m in my new home and I absolutely love it!

I won’t lie it has been tough having to do so much more for myself (thanks Mum!). I have had a couple of days crawling around on my hands and knees but it has been worth it. Overall I’m feeling much better!

I have a few more furniture ‘projects’ on the go. It has been so much fun having something productive and enjoyable to do that doesn’t involve much movement or energy expenditure. Although you never see Anna Ryder Richardson in such a mess do you?

I got a great coffee table in a charity shop because a toddler must have been let loose with a few pens.

I put some elbow grease into it with some sandpaper, cleaned it up and it now looks great!

Gotta love kids 😉

It’s been another tough week. I’ve come off some more medication, not only has this worsened the vertigo, my head has felt like it’s about to explode off of my shoulders. I’ve been using every remedy under the sun to help (my lovely Aunt bought half of Boots!), making my expressionless forehead a little more interesting.

I’m starting some new medication and I’ve got to hope this is the one that fixes things – how many times have I been here before?

I have been having fun trying to find furniture for my new pad as I should get the keys next week. I have found a great charity shop where I have picked up some real finds from the ‘bargain corner’ and up cycled them. Here is a pretty grim chest which I sanded down:

I then painted it:

I put wax on the places that would naturally have more wear and tear and then repainted it cream. I then sanded down the waxed areas exposing the colour beneath:

I found some old draw liners in the same charity shop and pasted them down to give it some much needed girlyness and added some nice new brass knobs and voila:

I’m very pleased. It may be more shabby than chic but I’m happy – the money went to a local hospice, I recycled so I’m saving the planet (every little helps!) and I had a fun project to keep me busy. It doesn’t cost a lot if you get creative with your tools 😉

This has to be my favourite page, I’ve got to get me some binoculars and a mac 😉

Finally I have some good news and it’s about time too! My family have decided that living back at home isn’t really helping me so we are going to rent a little place in the village for a few months. I’m so excited I can hardly sleep (for a change!).

I think it will be amazing to try and get some independence back and try and live a bit more of a normal life. I’m sure I will still have days when I may need help but I won’t know unless I give it a go.

We have applied for a place and I’m just hoping that it all goes through ok so fingers crossed. I can hardly believe that something positive is happening in my life. The only problem is that the only bit of furniture I own is my garden chair – eBay here I come!